Beside himself
Ausser sich

ausser sich ursula fricker
March 2012 / 256pp
  • Shortlisted for the Swiss Book Prize 2012

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Ursula Fricker’s novel dares to imagine a situation beyond most of our worst nightmares. Her sensitive portrayal of what it might mean to have a loved one irrevocably taken away – and yet still be there – negotiates the highly topical ethical dilemma of assisted dying, as well as drawing on universal themes of love and commitment.

Married architects Sebastian and Katja exemplify a modern, professional couple living in fashionable Berlin. Both aged around forty, they have prioritised their careers, leaving the question of whether or not to have children to simmer in the background. In general, Sebastian would like to start a family, while Katja has reservations. They also disagree over what to do about their cat, Rufus, who is suffering from a kidney tumour. The vet has advised that he be put to sleep and while Sebastian agrees with this course of action, Katja does not want to give up hope that Rufus’s condition might improve. This predicament pre-empts one of the novel’s central themes: how long should a life be artificially prolonged, when that life is arguably not worth living?

On their way to spend a weekend with friends, something happens to change Sebastian’s and Katja’s lives forever. Stuck in gridlocked traffic caused by an accident, Sebastian suffers a brain haemorrhage and falls into unconsciousness. Over the following weeks Sebastian comes out of his coma and regains some of his basic bodily functions, but he has lost his ability to communicate and respond to other people. He gazes into the distance and shows no signs of recognising his wife or anybody else. After struggling to look after Sebastian – now unable to speak, or to feed or clean himself independently – at their home, he is finally admitted to a care home, while Katja gradually returns to her career and brings him home for weekends and holidays.

Without his medication, Sebastian would certainly have died. Increasingly, he refuses to accept food and becomes thinner and more frail. Could this be an expression of a will that wishes to end the suffering? Doctors propose performing an operation on his stomach so that food can be pumped into it directly. It is at this point that Katja decides to take fate into her own hands, bringing the novel to its unexpected and moving conclusion.

Fricker’s absorbing depiction of the no man’s land between life and death is ideal book club material.

press quotes

‘The novel gets the readers’ adrenaline going, it makes them attentive, so that they are hooked and want to understand the different sides of the topic. A thoroughly powerful and convincing work.’– DRS 3

‘Ursula Fricker narrates with smart reserve, and yet at the same time, with a lively energy. She combines exact insight with precise language.’–   i

‘Considering all the darkness and gravity Ursula Fricker puts the reader through, one has to ask why there is nevertheless such light shining from the sentences of this novel. The reason is that Beside Himself is, deep-down, a love story.’–   i

‘I like the novel so much because it poses the only questions that really matter: What does it mean to be human? Fricker tells the story of steadfastness, of a strong form of love. That, to me, is magnificent.’
–     i

about the author

Ursula Fricker, was born in Schaffhausen in 1965 and now lives in Berlin as a freelance writer and journalist. She has won several awards for her novels. For the work on her latest novel, Fricker received a grant from Schaffhausen as well as from the UBS cultural foundation.

Previous works include:
Fliehende Wasser (2004); Das letzte Bild (2009)

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